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39 going on 70. I'm just bitching today!
39 going on 70. I'm just bitching today! I have to iron out the bugs in my self care regimen. It's not right to be achey all over all the time, is it? It's almost 0800 as I write this and I'm expected downstairs (hotel in Shamokin Dam, PA) for a run. Since I've started running with my coworkers, I've had to up both the pace and the distance. Why weren't 3 mile runs enough to keep me fit before? Why do 4 and 5 mile runs leave me so tired? At some point shouldn't I turn a corner and start to feel great? And yet, I'm still the pale flabby middle aged guy who doesn't get a second look at the bar. When I look at fit muscular guys, what I can't figure out is where they find the time to build that much muscle! I don't watch a ton of TV or surf the net for hours but I'll be damned if I have enough time for everything I have to get done these days. How would I fit in ye another hour in a gym every day? Which includes travel to and from the gym, shower and cleanup, stretching, etc. And would that even get me over the hump of feeling beat up or would I be even more broke down? It's enough to make me want to try drastic diet shifts (again). I'll try going gluten free and maybe getting off caffeine. Its also about time for my annual physical. Maybe this year I'll go to the doctor with a laundry list of complaints rather than trying to get through as quickly as possible with no problems. Next year I turn 40 and the physical exams will start getting a lot more friendly. Not looking forward to that! I almost hope I have something like a thyroid condition or Lyme disease. It would be nice to be able to take a pill and feel instantly better! I'm almost sure to get a Rx for 800mg ibuprofen but I worry about the long term effects of that on the liver. Dammit, where's m magic fix?! Have a good day everyone. I'm going to run now. |
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Sorry that you are feeling poorly, but be careful what you wish for. I have a thyroid problem and when finally diagnosed, they told me I would lose weight and feel much better. Neither happened and now I am stuck taking a pill for the rest of my life. There is no such thing as a quick fix. Having talked to you at some length over time and knowing your story, I think you are depressed. I think if anything you need to address that issue. Aches and pains is one of the many symptoms of depression. Twice now on this site, I have talked to really wonderful men who have made promises with regards to their marriage to the detriment of themselves. I think in the end both will regret it and wonder why they wasted the prime of their life and have nothing to show for it. Nice guys finish last is true in that respect. In the end, when all is said and done and all you have left is the knowledge that you did the right thing and kept your promise...is that going to be enough for you...when you still find yourself alone and not getting any younger? I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR MY OWN HAPPINESS!! (MY LIFE'S PHILOSOPHY)
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Hi Sweetie, thanks for the perspective. I guess I can be a bit insensitive when I bitch and feel sorry for myself.
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I didn't even realize you were blogging! I hope we can catch up soon ***
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