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~~The Random Babble Of NanaMom~~
I'm learning a lot sense joining this group and with the help of Mistress Moderator, I will learn more. From what you see below....I have a gift of gab and I tend to overflow. I'm working on new avenues in life and with the help of others, I hope to achieve my goal. Below is a lot of babble as you can see. Working things out and with the help of some really cool people here I will become a better person for that. I'm new to many things and very eager to learn and as someone told me before...... We are like sponges just soaking up all that is around. I just need to ring mine out from time to time and with that now said and done. Gonna find a damn for the Brook and attempt to enjoy the calmness of this stream.
Thank you once again
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Ok all......now I can "Ramble on Rose".......lol got my own avenue to let it all out so sit back and enjoy and if you don't.....get the flock out..........  | ||
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First.....a bit about me....just gonna cut and paste (cuz I can) and cuz I don't want to have to retype all of it again.......
Very interesting reading and it is AWESOME to see this topic openly discussed like this.....Because up until recently.........I was clueless to the D/s, BDSM lifestyle or anything about it. But recently, I mean just this past Nov.......I didn't have a clue that I had submissive tendencies.......and it was by pure accident that this avenue was opened to me. An avenue that I have chosen to explore and experience. For you newbies........another book to check out is.....
Different Loving........The World of Sexual Dominance & submission
It has helped me with some internal questions I was having after a gf that I'd known for many years....a submissive (which I didn't know until she informed me that I was a submissive also) and a new friend open this door for me to explore. | ||
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Ok.......and now after reading those of you that haven't read any of my post with be a bit more aware of who I am....(well kinda....cuz I'm still trying to find that out myself) but you are definetly better informed and if you don't like it....get out......as I've created this for me and those that like my sassiness and if you not one of them, your not welcome...... BTW.....one of the poles I filled out here.....(well, done them all... anyhow) asked what three words I'd use to describe myself and well, I came up with four I'm a.......
Sassy........Sexy.......Sultry.........sub.........
as the above post states.......I'm going down an avenue I've never traveled and there are many question's I have and as the title states...... I have an ability to Babble......
so with that said.........time for a new post.......lololol | ||
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boy.........I see some have viewed but no one has the balls to post...... interesting.......
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I'm still laughing after that one Mr. T..........wasn't sure if you or Scorp would reply first.........
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I've been able to max out this boxes........does anyone know what the capasity is here in the text zone........need to shorten a blog but don't know the max.........lolol
go figure.........who'd thunk......... | ||
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Part 1 of 2
A few things most don't know....... I'm a single mom of many..... 5 to be exact..... 3 girls and 2 boys.......my oldest is will be 23 next month and has gifted me with 2 beautiful grand daughters.....Shaie, the oldest with be 4 in Oct........and Lilith will be 1 this month... on the 29th. She is 6 month pregnant with my first grand son that will be born in the middle of Nov......already named....... Jesse Alfred M...... think their gonna call him J.A.M for a nick as that will be his initials.... His first name is after my dad.....who went to sleep on Sept 8.......and was found dead (the 9th)two days before 9/11/01 so that tragedy has a double meaning for me because on the way to his place to grieve the lose of him.....we heard over radio, the whole Twin Towers tragedy......Personally......to go to sleep and never wake up is how I'd want to go as I lost my mother (as well as both of her parents prior) back in 93 to a very long battle of Cancer that tormented us for 3 years... two surgeries and much suffering......so, I want to die in my sleep because living through the pain of illness is not a pretty picture. Not to mention that my professional background has opened the door to see much suffering as I'm a nurse.......Ever tell a loved one that a family member is dead?? Most haven't.......but I have and that takes it's toll on one......hence.....the time to be here so much...... I had to take a break......before I broke......(you'll understand more later). | ||
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Part 2 of 2
My second child.....a daughter.....will be 21 in Dec.....her and I butt heads often and that cause lots of grief as she is the one working right now and has the attitude (much like mine) to go with it. She is a very bright child...they all are but damn........too flippen much like me when I was that age..... hated most everyone cuz of life's screwed up hand we were dealt...... (if it wasn't for dysfunction......I wouldn't have a family.....there is issue with all) Anyhow........the next two kids are my sons......one 19 and 18 and believe you me........damn teenagers are no fun.......been there done that......(no pun guy) 4 times already and it can and will take a toll..... both are awesome as they all are but life throw us a major curve... On July 12, 2006 my second son gave me a note that changed our world forever. The note was the precursor to his diagnoses of Paranoid Schizophrenia compiled with Major Depression........and the downhill spiral was in motion. I would bore you with the gory details.....as that was two years ago.... but after two different....(locked up, hospital stays..one 6 day and the other 28 days ((how ironic)) in a mental hospital and involvement with unwarranted agencies.......and lots of med changes.... things are better. | ||
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the above is not done........go figure I had it so work in writing but for whatever reason this type mode is a joke....oh well....... addition to part 2 In all of this with my son, my youngest daughter.....(11 now) watch mom lose it many times and no child should have to see that as the parent is to be in control. Not to mention, no parent should have to chose between kicking out a child or placing one in foster for everyone's safety.....yes, that was my choice because of my son mental instability.......kick out the one he had a problem with or place him in foster care......what would you chose?? It is not as easy as it sounds and I had to make that choice. He was place (with an awesome family,thank God) with open communication and visitation and well, after six months and lots of BS involvent he came back home......that was a year ago April. So with a little insight to me.....you have a better understanding to why I'm not taking the shit of others nor am I anybodies doormat....I'm here for me and what I want to achieve in my life being that I'm going through my second childhood. I'm trying all sorts of new things as well as wanting to try....... so that it is in a nut shell.......NOT but either way it has made me stronger and pushed me to this next level in life. The one that is all about me, for me, and no body is gonna stand in my way. This was not nor is posted for your sympathy as I've stated before and I guess all I'm asking......not really asking but saying is for a better understanding of me. That is what I'm doing as well as searching for. It is all about me now.
Damn with my gift of gag.........gonna have to figure out a better way to proof this flippen boxes......just noticed that what I was saying bout me is not complete.......... | ||
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Being a mom of many and dealing with all of life's curves I can be a vixen and that is not who I am nor what I'm about. I am here to found out more about me......for me and explore new avenues so post if you'd like but it's not a must as this is more for me then you and if you dare.......maybe we both will learn something new as (for me) that is what it is about.........LEARNING ABOUT ONESELF with all that out it the open........none of which is for anyone sympathy....not by far. It is mainly for me. A therapeutic way to prevent me from going off on ppl here and in life. | ||
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WOW! Girl I hope you get enough of this out and posted in front of you so you can step back and look at it again. My brain is swollen. I read it all and there are a few things clear as a bell and a bunch that I still need to move around like a gig saw puzzle, putting over here and some up there and grab that piece and bring it down over here to try and make sense of it! Ok I understand you are going to use this "medium" to process the things that are happening to you in your current life adventures. Right on, that's cool, you can do that. But here's where you need to make a few modifications. You are posting in a public forum, in an already establish group of people, that have an existing relationship with one another, based on their devotion to the group. We have demonstrated our mellow, fun loving, and understanding attitudes in the way we've posted our comments to one another in other threads and to you in the last couple days since you joined. But I think you may be assuming to much. I don't think you've spent enough time in groups like this to understand the flow or the foundation that makes them work. The way one measures their success is by the amount of need we each have to be involved in each others lives. But that need does not happen over night, it develops over time. This happens through a daily commitment to reading and commenting on one another's threads and sharing ourselves with the group and building trust. You see this, and YOU want this, and you are trying to obtain it in an instant. For you to have, or obtain what we have, you need to express yourself in a way that will draw us to you. If you want the group to read your ongoing adventures and become emotionally involved with who you are and what you are going through you need to communicate with them openly and honestly. And you need to express yourself in a way that we can understand. Be patient, this is not going to happen over night. Don't expect a windfall of responses, and above all don't cop an attitude. I, as the moderator of this group, am going to make a couple suggestions. They are meant only to help you succeed here.
1. SLOW DOWN! FORM YOUR THOUGHTS AND IDEAS INTO COMPLETE SENTENCES AND EXPRESS YOURSELF CLEARLY. SO THOSE THAT READ IT CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING. Without understanding, there is no emotional commitment to you. If we don't feel what you are going through, because we don't understand your "RAMBLINGS" we can't find the common ground or emotional connection to you to want to continue to read your posts.
2. RE READ, AND SPELL CHECK, BEFORE POSTING, TO INSURE YOUR MEANING COMES THROUGH LOUD AND CLEAR. STOP BEATING THE DEAD HORSE! ONCE YOU'VE MADE YOUR POINT CLEARLY DO NOT REPOST IT 30 MORE TIMES. YOU WILL LOSE PEOPLE FAST THAT WAY.
3. ENGAGE THE READER TO BECOME INVOLVED BY ASKING THEM TO RESPOND TO A PARTICULAR QUESTION OR SET OF QUESTIONS. SEEK THE ADVICE OF YOUR FELLOW GROUP MEMBERS.
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Thank you very much. I have read and re-read what your posted. I asked for you advice and will take it. Now worries from me, as I'm looking forward to more from all that are here. Thank you once again........
Mistress Moderator
I just need to find out how to bottle this internal energy as it tends to get out of control from time to time. Any suggestion????
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nana... maybe you should start a blog... that seems to get the energy out for some. Good luck! WEAVE1001 (Angela) | ||
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NMom, I "know" what you need, and not just a blog, though I'm sure that will help  . I'm sure a fwb who could get down, so to speak, your way would be a huge help. your honesty and openness is good to see. But yes you might want to think twice at times. | ||
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Thanks all and the advice is duly noted. All of this is a learning experience for me and am looking at things a bit differently these days. Scorp, trying to work past an FWB that had too big of a hold of my heart......but, that too shall pass. As I've mentioned before, a dam had formed in the babbling brook and all it good. Looking forward to all that is in store for me.
Once again, thank you to all the ones who have taken the time to read through the drama of my past and rest assured it it just that now.... In my past. | ||
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Thanks DDoll
When I first got here I was very excited and well, you all seen what happened. I have stepped back, after asking for advice, and I am changing my tune, as you have seen. I enjoy what everyone has to say and I'm looking forward to more input form all. So no worries, I just wish I knew how to delete this damn thread. Looking forward to hearing more and eventually meeting the new friends I've met here. | ||
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Don't worry about deleting the thread Nana eventually it will fade away. Post in other places, express you opinions in other places and continue to share your story when the topics request a story from it's members. Like how did your family style day go yesterday? | ||
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'Family style' tat..........been away for a few days........and now I'm lost.....enlighten me.......please woman.......and stop laughing at me........lololol I think I know but I've learned not to 'ASSUME' | ||
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laughing at you? I don't understand, where am I laughing at you? ... and I was asking how your date at the water park went? | ||
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Meant nothing bout that........................just being the smart ass that I can be but these damn boxes don't let that through.
Nothing meant by it and we all had a WONDERFUL time.
Thanks for asking  | ||
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A Question, that I could use some help in understanding....
Why is it that men who wouldn't give me the time of day a few months back are now wanting to be friends on here? Two guys that blow me off months ago are now wanting to be 'Friends' again after seeing the new pics I've posted here recently. Is this how it is all the time now adays? Not sure if it is because I've been out of the loop for too many years or what???
Care to help me understand?  | ||
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It's very possible that it is as shallow as that. Men are dogs, and they know it. Now that's not to say they are all bad, but it is a well known fact that men are stimulated, sexually, more by the "VISUAL" than the cerebral. Then again it could also be that because you feel better about yourself, after loosing the weight, and you have a better and more approachable attitude then when you were heavier. Just an idea to ponder. Oh and one more idea, if THEY are the same assholes they were when you met them before,,,, tell them to kick rocks, cus you have better fish to fry!!! | ||
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Thanks again Woman........ I'm still learning this game and sometimes I just need to help of others to see how it is.
Gonna have to get a bigger frying pan if I'm gonna stay here.  | ||
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quote tat2lady4U: It's very possible that it is as shallow as that. Men are dogs, and they know it. Now that's not to say they are all bad, but it is a well known fact that men are stimulated, sexually, more by the "VISUAL" than the cerebral. Then again it could also be that because you feel better about yourself, after loosing the weight, and you have a better and more approachable attitude then when you were heavier. Just an idea to ponder. Oh and one more idea, if THEY are the same assholes they were when you met them before,,,, tell them to kick rocks, cus you have better fish to fry!!! Not only is MM, sweet(at times), sexy, and talented she is wise indeed. A women who carries herself with pride and self-confidence is so much more attractive to all. This applies to everyone both men and women. | ||
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Thank you for that Scorp.........you all have taught me lots~~!!
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