not running around sticking my pole in every hole. I am looking for ( 1 ) women to fill the void. I love giving oral. I love my wife and do not intend on leaving her. I am unable to go down on her after watching the birth of our s. I know the haters are going to hate, but it is the truth. I have been to see a shrink and a sex the. Nothing works. She knows I get sick. She knows it is not her body that makes me sick. It is remembering what I saw that does it. I am a Marine and I have seen MUCH worse. It is her pain and blood that does it. I watched her get skin cancer removed and I got tunnel vision and almost passed out. it is totally a mental thing and I can't beat it. In passing I met a women that her husband had the same problem. It cost her her marriage. She had not been with a man for 6 years. She had given up. One thing lead to another and we had a 3yr affair. She had to move and we are still good friends. That was over a year ago. I am looking to fill that void. I get off on pleasing a women orally. ... PERIOD. I love it. For all you haters out there .... you can't have your Prince Charming without us toads.